Lost in a Battle of Love

Kisi ne kaha tha mujhe,
chodke jane wale jayenge hi,
chahe tum choti galti kro ya badi.
Esa bolne wala insan,
jo sabse pehle sath chodke jate dekha h
sabne hi thukraya h mujhe to,
Kabhi mere gusse ki vajah se,
to kabhi meri baato or behaviour ki vajah se.
Pta h mujhe meri galtiya hoti bohot h,
lekin kisi ek ke sath rehkar,
kisi dusre se najar kabhi milai nahi maine.
par logo ke itne bade bade waaade
or unke waade sirf baate.

Kabhi itni khush rehne wali ladki,
ko aaj sabne milkar rula dia.
Kabhi dil me pyar rakhne wali ko,
bass nafrat karna sikha diya.
hmesha sath rahunga bolne wala b,
rulake chala gya.
suna tha uske muh se,
tum yaad karna m chala aaunga,
aaj khudko maine har jagah se block paalia.

M ek baat hmesha sochti thi,
ki mujhse koi pyar nahi krta,
par kisi ese insan ki pyar ki jarurat kyu h mujhe,
jo hmesha srf i love you bolta h,
pr uski harkate kuch or hi bayan krti h.
rooh se pyar krne wale bohot kam h,
gale se dupatta utarna sabko aata h,
mere sir pe jo dupatta rakhe,
bass uski mujhe talaash h .

M samajh na saki use or uske pyar ko,
bas 2 kodi ke insan pe bhrosha karlia.
baar baar rulata gya vo mujhe,
aur m roti chali gai.
jo baat krte the ladkio ke respect ki,
usne hath mujhpe uthadia.
jis jamane me m kabhi kisi ko galat nhi bola krti thi,
us jamane ne mujhe sari gaaliya sikhadi.
Lo, itne din baad aaj un sab pe hi mne barsaa di.
jab m sirf sunti thi tab b mujhe sunaya tha,
aaj jab mne b unhi ka rashta apnaya,
to aaj b mujhe galat theraya tha.

ab khush hu m bohot,
jo kal jaane wala tha,
aaj usko mne apni jindagi se nikala h.
mujhe pta h fark nhi pdta use,
kyuki un jaiso ka kaam sirf ladkio ko faisana h.
m nahi to koi or sahi.
use sirf timepass jo karna h.
pyar ka koi mol nhi yha.
sab kuch tika chuppi me h,
tum galat sun gye hardum,
to sab accha or
 kuch bol gye to gir tum sabki najar me jaoge.

vo saksh jise mne 3 saal pehle choda tha,
ye sochke ki har baat pe paabandi lgata h,
vishwas bilkul nhi krta h,
aaj itna kuch hone ke baad b,
mere sath vo khada h.
jab duniya ne mujhe thukraya h,
to vo har pal mere liye ladaa h.
aaj jab mere dimag me aatmahatya jaisa shabd aa rha h,
to vo mujhe har pal samjha rha h,
jab m kehti thi mujhe akele rehne do thodi der to vo,
chod jata the mujhe akela
aaj mere baar baar akele rehne ka bolne par bhi,
 ye saksh mujhe baar baar call kr rha h.

M kaise uski baato me aagai,
jiski baate kuch or aur najre kuch or kehti thi.
mere hasne se, mere rone se, mujhe khone se 
use kabhi fark pda nhi,
ese insan ke sath m kse rahi thi.
har pal dum ghutata tha mera,
video call pe use meri smile dikh jati thi,
mere anshu ushe kabhi dikhe nahi.
kya feelings ki sach me kadar kisi ko rahi nahi.